亂來…… |
我死了……
2009-11-05-Thu-23:26
2009年11月5日 晚9時許
如往常一般的生活，此時電腦前開啟的諸多網頁，MSN、QQ不斷跳閃的聊天對話方塊……
我幻想著我會到達另一個時空，即便我與電腦另一端的她都知道這是一句戲言，一個不能完成的戲言。
當日 當夜 晚 10時 整點
大腦開始懸空，我感到身體無比的輕浮，胃液有點上湧，我感覺……
我想吐
幾秒的痛苦而過，我雙眼煞白，一切都看不清……
飄過數秒，睜開雙眼。
我已經我昏睡一夜。
細思……
我不知道這是哪里？
2019年11月6日 白日 不知何時
我不知道這是哪里，我不知道這是何時，腳下躺著一個人，我有些驚恐的低下身，蹦出她的鼻尖。
是的，好在她有呼吸……
翻過她的身體，我看清她的臉……
似曾相識。
大腦快速的翻動記憶相冊。她原來是前一刻與我網上聊天的jogu……
我在拼湊我的記憶，我在確認我的想法。
或許只是腳邊的人與她過於相似……
畢竟我們只是交換照片並未現實接觸。
網路背後並非現實……
只是讓我們拿出大把現實來換取虛幻的東西……
我在思考，jogu已經醒來，她似乎跟我一樣疑問。
我們沒有過多的去問候彼此的首次見面，只是想知道這是哪里？
天色陰暗，卻不是夜晚的降臨。似乎只是陰天擋住白日看不見陽光。四周是田莊，而再望眼過去……
一片墓地……
除此
百里再無人煙……
我們攜手而去，並沒有初次見面的害羞，或許網上已經太過熟悉。
墓地漸近，手心中可以感覺到彼此的汗液與身體的顫抖。
我們在徘徊，也在疑問，為何我們要來到墓地查看而非一路向前……
“走吧，墓地是逝者，我們還是不要打攪他們了。”她對我說。
而我，只是輕輕的舉手自己的右手，用食指指向前方……
那是一塊有些破舊的墓碑，上面用中文正體楷書這樣寫著。
X X 逝於 2009年11月6日
“這名字有些……熟悉……”她有些不確定的問我。
我沒有著急回答她的問題，我走向前，將墓碑用自己的衣袖擦拭著，我看到那行子之上漸漸的露出一張已經褪色的照片。
此時，我看清照片，才回答她的問題……
“是的，你記得嘛……你曾經給我郵寄你的書……而那個收件人的名字跟墓碑上的一樣……”
而後……
那陣眩暈，那陣嘔吐，那陣輕浮 再度襲來……
白茫茫的看不清楚……
2009年11月5日 22時12分
我回到過去……
我明白，明天是我的死期……
END
穿越給J的明年生日禮物，哇哈哈~
此文來源以下RP對話（其實只有我在RP~J一直在吐血吧~）
中途省略不搭調對話一部份……
________________________分割線君_____________________
一下為觀後感總結~
日誌下直接回的我就不貼上來了
如往常一般的生活，此時電腦前開啟的諸多網頁，MSN、QQ不斷跳閃的聊天對話方塊……
我幻想著我會到達另一個時空，即便我與電腦另一端的她都知道這是一句戲言，一個不能完成的戲言。
當日 當夜 晚 10時 整點
大腦開始懸空，我感到身體無比的輕浮，胃液有點上湧，我感覺……
我想吐
幾秒的痛苦而過，我雙眼煞白，一切都看不清……
飄過數秒，睜開雙眼。
我已經我昏睡一夜。
細思……
我不知道這是哪里？
2019年11月6日 白日 不知何時
我不知道這是哪里，我不知道這是何時，腳下躺著一個人，我有些驚恐的低下身，蹦出她的鼻尖。
是的，好在她有呼吸……
翻過她的身體，我看清她的臉……
似曾相識。
大腦快速的翻動記憶相冊。她原來是前一刻與我網上聊天的jogu……
我在拼湊我的記憶，我在確認我的想法。
或許只是腳邊的人與她過於相似……
畢竟我們只是交換照片並未現實接觸。
網路背後並非現實……
只是讓我們拿出大把現實來換取虛幻的東西……
我在思考，jogu已經醒來，她似乎跟我一樣疑問。
我們沒有過多的去問候彼此的首次見面，只是想知道這是哪里？
天色陰暗，卻不是夜晚的降臨。似乎只是陰天擋住白日看不見陽光。四周是田莊，而再望眼過去……
一片墓地……
除此
百里再無人煙……
我們攜手而去，並沒有初次見面的害羞，或許網上已經太過熟悉。
墓地漸近，手心中可以感覺到彼此的汗液與身體的顫抖。
我們在徘徊，也在疑問，為何我們要來到墓地查看而非一路向前……
“走吧，墓地是逝者，我們還是不要打攪他們了。”她對我說。
而我，只是輕輕的舉手自己的右手，用食指指向前方……
那是一塊有些破舊的墓碑，上面用中文正體楷書這樣寫著。
X X 逝於 2009年11月6日
“這名字有些……熟悉……”她有些不確定的問我。
我沒有著急回答她的問題，我走向前，將墓碑用自己的衣袖擦拭著，我看到那行子之上漸漸的露出一張已經褪色的照片。
此時，我看清照片，才回答她的問題……
“是的，你記得嘛……你曾經給我郵寄你的書……而那個收件人的名字跟墓碑上的一樣……”
而後……
那陣眩暈，那陣嘔吐，那陣輕浮 再度襲來……
白茫茫的看不清楚……
2009年11月5日 22時12分
我回到過去……
我明白，明天是我的死期……
END
穿越給J的明年生日禮物，哇哈哈~
此文來源以下RP對話（其實只有我在RP~J一直在吐血吧~）
中途省略不搭調對話一部份……
________________________分割線君_____________________
一下為觀後感總結~
日誌下直接回的我就不貼上來了
我不混同人圈
2009-11-04-Wed-01:00
同人圈跟我沒關，我只是寫點小白文而已。
我現在就是養娃，所以不要把我說成是你們偉大同人圈的一員。
我天生沒常性，我只做我喜歡的事情，
不要把我想的那麼偉大有那麼高的文學素養，我自始至終不是寫手，
因為我寫的都是毫無水準的東西。
你可以隨便對任何人說我的負面評價，如果那個人也是白癡的會信的話。
所以你不用把我罵的那麼偉大，因為我本身就無比卑微。
謝謝合作。
丸子，你真的是治癒系啊~
我現在就是養娃，所以不要把我說成是你們偉大同人圈的一員。
我天生沒常性，我只做我喜歡的事情，
不要把我想的那麼偉大有那麼高的文學素養，我自始至終不是寫手，
因為我寫的都是毫無水準的東西。
你可以隨便對任何人說我的負面評價，如果那個人也是白癡的會信的話。
所以你不用把我罵的那麼偉大，因為我本身就無比卑微。
謝謝合作。
丸子，你真的是治癒系啊~
Finally,i left Dollzone,without sad...
2009-11-03-Tue-01:18
It's not very long i stayed in DZ,left here,extrication more than sadness...
I went to DZ because i love BJD,i have many apprehensions when i applied for the position of Brand Engineer,although i have learned strategic management at university in Russia,but i do not know if i can use what i have learned...in fact i'm conceited because i have management working experience in my previous work...even i do not know the BJD industry well but i think i know the BJD market trend well though i have had BJD doll for quite a few years,...but i found i was totally wrong when i came into DZ.....
Management in DZ is in mess.....Sunfei always excused that caused by the leaving of Huangshan team,most of staffs in DZ now is new comer and need to time to communicate.....i accept the reason,but i found management is not an easy job and the their own management style is wrong,,,or they totally do not know what is management...
The most helpless thing is that when i indicated there are problems of their product quantity and they must be strict with the factory to solve these problems....but they were always stall me off excusing that there are not enough workers in factory....and so on...
Then,Sunfei's wife was pregnant....i take management of DZ during the month...i done it without any word.....but then...Sunfei invited her Sister-in-law(his wife' s elder sister) to manage the company...and a miracle happened....all people in the company do not like her but she said i disturb the working environment....she do not trust me and always war on me...train trip from Shenzhen to Beijing...it's planing need 24 hours but finally it took 27 hours....in the small space of the train,i tell myself this is job not entertainment,i must endure it....
We(my colleague and me) go to order the returning trip ticket as soon as we get off the train....but the staffs in railway station told us the tickets are sold out.....then we call the company to see what to do next....but they do not trust me....they thought we want to back by air but not by train...what's a ridiculous reason!There is a saying in China that" employer should trust his employee when he employ him,when he suspect someone,he will never employ the one"...how can you employ me but you do not trust me?
As a brand engineer,the basic point is that i nee dot know when to release a product and when to stop selling a product...but they have not told me 2 times about 2 important products.....what's the use of me?
When i was sad with it ,Sunfei asked to talk with me one morning...i had no idea what happened...i only thought he is our boss and we should follow the boss....however....
He asked me if i have found the working environment is becoming bad and everyone are not simple as before....i thought ok you finally found the problems at that time....everyone here are not wholehearted to work since your sister-in-law came...but in my surprise....Sunfei believe that it's me to instigate his staffs not to work heart and soul....i disturb the team....
I was shocked....and i questioned at him why he thought that?sunfei told me everyone said i done it ,include the words i talked with her sister-in-law on line...
I laugh at that time...so Sunfei you trust the statement of only her sister-in-law...how can i stay in such a company to waste my life?
I came to the company because i love BJD...i want to make DZ to be the no.1 bjd company....i work for DZ heart and soul but finally they give me such a evaluation...are there any need to stay here for me?
Before i came to DZ...every night i chart with my friends on MSN..but after i came to DZ,the work has overdraft all my energy...i had no time to surf the net....but it change into such a result....
Ah...i can done nothing...after all that's his sister-in-law....i'm a outsider...
Probably i should thank DZ....it make me know why family firm in china can't flourish for quite long time as that in oversea countries....
I should thank Sunfei....he made me totally depressed with BJD.....i doubt the quality when i heard he said "almost is ok" time after time....
Finally i should thank DZ....i met many friends here...
In my opinion....the most valued fortune is friend in life...
As above...over..
I went to DZ because i love BJD,i have many apprehensions when i applied for the position of Brand Engineer,although i have learned strategic management at university in Russia,but i do not know if i can use what i have learned...in fact i'm conceited because i have management working experience in my previous work...even i do not know the BJD industry well but i think i know the BJD market trend well though i have had BJD doll for quite a few years,...but i found i was totally wrong when i came into DZ.....
Management in DZ is in mess.....Sunfei always excused that caused by the leaving of Huangshan team,most of staffs in DZ now is new comer and need to time to communicate.....i accept the reason,but i found management is not an easy job and the their own management style is wrong,,,or they totally do not know what is management...
The most helpless thing is that when i indicated there are problems of their product quantity and they must be strict with the factory to solve these problems....but they were always stall me off excusing that there are not enough workers in factory....and so on...
Then,Sunfei's wife was pregnant....i take management of DZ during the month...i done it without any word.....but then...Sunfei invited her Sister-in-law(his wife' s elder sister) to manage the company...and a miracle happened....all people in the company do not like her but she said i disturb the working environment....she do not trust me and always war on me...train trip from Shenzhen to Beijing...it's planing need 24 hours but finally it took 27 hours....in the small space of the train,i tell myself this is job not entertainment,i must endure it....
We(my colleague and me) go to order the returning trip ticket as soon as we get off the train....but the staffs in railway station told us the tickets are sold out.....then we call the company to see what to do next....but they do not trust me....they thought we want to back by air but not by train...what's a ridiculous reason!There is a saying in China that" employer should trust his employee when he employ him,when he suspect someone,he will never employ the one"...how can you employ me but you do not trust me?
As a brand engineer,the basic point is that i nee dot know when to release a product and when to stop selling a product...but they have not told me 2 times about 2 important products.....what's the use of me?
When i was sad with it ,Sunfei asked to talk with me one morning...i had no idea what happened...i only thought he is our boss and we should follow the boss....however....
He asked me if i have found the working environment is becoming bad and everyone are not simple as before....i thought ok you finally found the problems at that time....everyone here are not wholehearted to work since your sister-in-law came...but in my surprise....Sunfei believe that it's me to instigate his staffs not to work heart and soul....i disturb the team....
I was shocked....and i questioned at him why he thought that?sunfei told me everyone said i done it ,include the words i talked with her sister-in-law on line...
I laugh at that time...so Sunfei you trust the statement of only her sister-in-law...how can i stay in such a company to waste my life?
I came to the company because i love BJD...i want to make DZ to be the no.1 bjd company....i work for DZ heart and soul but finally they give me such a evaluation...are there any need to stay here for me?
Before i came to DZ...every night i chart with my friends on MSN..but after i came to DZ,the work has overdraft all my energy...i had no time to surf the net....but it change into such a result....
Ah...i can done nothing...after all that's his sister-in-law....i'm a outsider...
Probably i should thank DZ....it make me know why family firm in china can't flourish for quite long time as that in oversea countries....
I should thank Sunfei....he made me totally depressed with BJD.....i doubt the quality when i heard he said "almost is ok" time after time....
Finally i should thank DZ....i met many friends here...
In my opinion....the most valued fortune is friend in life...
As above...over..
北京DP
2009-10-30-Fri-00:02
前時間は北京に行って出張します。
ついでに北京DPは遊びました。
YOSD体重だけの便利、自然と持って行ったのは丸子でした。
次に写真ですょ~~~
丸子の兄弟を発見します！
双子~萌え~
YOSDの子供達~（第1列、右側第2の牛牛は丸子です）
[第一列最右邊的三個都是蓮花丸哦~]
單獨有拍我非常喜歡的一家衣服的攤位
最後
the last is the pictures that taken in the hotel of the 1st night we arrive in Beijing
酒店的服務指南
抱著我的車票 >__<
歸程在飛機上拍的，讓丸子坐在餐盒裏面~
丸子：（伸手）E E 給我糖吃~
以上~
ついでに北京DPは遊びました。
YOSD体重だけの便利、自然と持って行ったのは丸子でした。
次に写真ですょ~~~
丸子の兄弟を発見します！
双子~萌え~
YOSDの子供達~（第1列、右側第2の牛牛は丸子です）
[第一列最右邊的三個都是蓮花丸哦~]
單獨有拍我非常喜歡的一家衣服的攤位
最後
the last is the pictures that taken in the hotel of the 1st night we arrive in Beijing
酒店的服務指南
抱著我的車票 >__<
歸程在飛機上拍的，讓丸子坐在餐盒裏面~
丸子：（伸手）E E 給我糖吃~
以上~
做人偶爾需要自虐
2009-10-11-Sun-12:30
実は……
ぃまはDZ仕事で私です= =///
しかし……
ぃま……
私はとてもここを離れたいですね。
私があまりに無邪気かも知れません。
夢想していません、ただお金だけを思い付きます、うそで他人の夢想を造ります……
私からするとても行き過ぎな行為です。
而
別のいくつかの事……
私にこの仕事を感じさせることは強盗を奪い取りますそうです。
辞職？
私はこのように思ったのです。
しかし……
私はどのようにすることを知りません
ぃまはDZ仕事で私です= =///
しかし……
ぃま……
私はとてもここを離れたいですね。
私があまりに無邪気かも知れません。
夢想していません、ただお金だけを思い付きます、うそで他人の夢想を造ります……
私からするとても行き過ぎな行為です。
而
別のいくつかの事……
私にこの仕事を感じさせることは強盗を奪い取りますそうです。
辞職？
私はこのように思ったのです。
しかし……
私はどのようにすることを知りません
